Lost in Love
What happens when the one you love and trust with all of your heart, the one who supports you in all things needs support? I am a soldier constantly ready for war to defend the people that I love in my life. BUT, I don’t do well with death and loss. I never know what to say or do. It is the rare time that I am at a loss for words. When my sister and ride or die called me, I was happy, expecting a jovial exchange of love or a silly conversation about of how crazy life is AND instead I hear, “Crow, I need to tell you something.” Quiet, but confident that she and I would have to solve another one of life’s problems together, I listened bracing for another opportunity to stand up and be a leader and help fix something in our family.
The next few words crippled and floored me, “Crow, I was diagnosed with breast cancer.” I lost it in tears for about 30 seconds until Sadie intervened and said, “Crow, I am going to be okay, I got this. Grandma, Bep, Dad and I prayed about it and I’m going to beat this.” I never felt more helpless in my life, but it was Sadie’s strength that inspired me to step up and be strong for her. I had to; she has been an intercessor and source of strength for me my entire life. When I gained my composure, I vowed to never let her see me like that again during this fight and I pledged to give her all I could to help her win this battle. I prayed daily for God’s healing power, grace and mercy.
God has shown me signs and wonders that have strengthened my faith through the testimonies and experiences of my loved ones. I watched God heal my grandmother and bring her out of a near death experience. She will be 95 years young this year and when you see her, you would think she was ten to twenty years younger than she is. AND then God healed Sadie from breast cancer. To God be the Glory! I have learned to trust God in EVERY situation, especially health situations.
Shane “Crow” Johnson
I also wasn’t very pleased with my reaction when Sadie shared the news with me. Like you, I took the same vow….”Never again…”
Thank you for sharing such a moving personal reflection. Your transparency and vulnerability will heal many hearts…especially men! ❤️
The strength you displayed gave me the strength to support you through this journey. Now, let me go get my tissues…Crows words have me on my couch in tears. #SadiesSoliders!
Sadie & Crow,
This is WONDERFUL!!! Thank you for being so transparent and using your platform
to share your journey. In “our community” secrecy and silence in the norm. Your story reiterates that it is ok to not be ok, that there is strength in numbers, and that the power of prayer STILL works!
Love you guys dearly,
Such an amazing testament to the strength of our families! Thank you for sharing your inner thoughts and strength!
When you had your 50th birthday party that was the first time I heard your name. Everybody knew Sadie but me. (I wasn’t invited☹️lol). I thank God for Russell because being with him gave me the opportunity to meet a very beautiful person – you. I call myself “Sweet, wonderful, nice, Tracey”, but you are really the sweetest, most wonderful, and real person that I have come in touch with in a long time. Keep being who God made you to be…A hell of a fighter!!! I love you like family ❤️.
Sadie, May God see that you are cancer free for eternity. When I was diagnosis it first hits you like a ton of bricks. It’s like you fall down get up brush yourself off and say “let’s do this” it’s great to surround yourself with those that have gone through what you’re going through. I think this is what purpose is all about. You help somebody because someone helped you. I’ve known Crow for a long time and he’s great to have in your corner. I’m and now connected to you. I enjoy seeing your post and all that you’re doing 💞
You guys set an unmovable foundation of Prayer, love and family. I’m blessed to be apart of this!
Lawd!!!!! I knew this was gon take me out! And it most certainly did! Im not going to be able to handle these blogs Sadie Mae!!!! Love ya!!!
Very well said Crow! I totally relate to how you felt!